January 6, 2015
Road to Provincials: Day 78/231
Aaaaand I’m back! The holidays kind of got the best of me there for a while and I just couldn’t find the time to add a few entries to the blog page. I’ve said it before but this cold weather is the absolute death of me! I think this might have been one of the laziest winter holidays I’ve ever endured… I cut back my training, I ate everything in sight and I drank about thirty cartons of eggnog. The sad part about that is that I’m not exaggerating. The sadder part is that I ended up losing weight over the break from not eating enough of the right foods. All in all, I had a great Christmas, spent with friends and family but I had my fare share of down time too and I’m ready to get back at it.
It’s now January 2015 and shit’s about to get really real! I start contest prep next month on the 7th so I’ve got these last four weeks to get my training back up to where it needs to be and also start cleaning up the diet a bit more so it’s not such a slap in the face when it’s time to go balls to the wall. My training is planned out, my diet and supplements are being finalized now and my motivation is ramping back up just in time to turn this shit on and do some damage!
I want to hold myself accountable to a certain level of conditioning before I go ahead and register for this competition so I’m going to go about everything as planned but I don’t just want to compete for the sake of competing. Basically, if after 16 weeks of dieting and training I don’t feel my physique is better than my last showing and also one that could compete for top 5 at provincials, I won’t step on stage. Just to be clear, this isn’t me copping out, it’s just my way of saying I don’t want to compete if I don’t think I’m bringing a better package than last time and also one that can hold it’s own against this level of competition. My first show was alright to just get lean and step on stage because I was just trying it out. I feel that if I’m going to come back and compete again after a year off I better be coming with something that can compete for first call outs otherwise I shouldn’t get out there and waste space. It’s no longer about just looking lean and esthetic enough to compete, now I want to compete to win. Anyone can pay to walk on stage, I’ve already done that. Now I want to compete to win.
I can’t wait for prep to start this time around so I’ll have some better content to post about, I’ll have legit progress pictures to post along the way and I’ll get to gripe and complain to you the whole way about how badly I want donuts, pizza and icecream. It’s going to be heaps of fun!
In all seriousness though, I’m really looking forward to this because it’s essentially forced adherence for me. I don’t have the option to eat shitty or to skip workouts because the image of a less-than-lean me looms over my head during that time and keeps me on track when I feel like I’m slipping. That’s all it takes – one good motivating factor to help people reach their goals and knowing that I have to step on stage half naked at a lower body fat level than last time is all the motivation I need. I was joking about the griping and complaining part (even though I will most likely be a bit more grumpy in general during this process), I’m the one who wants this which means it’s not fair (and frankly it’s a bit annoying) to bitch and complain to others about what I’m trying to do. I’ll do my best to keep that part to me when blogging about my journey but I can’t promise there won’t be an underlying hint of ‘pissyness’ for lack of better words.
Until next time, work hard, lift heavy, eat clean and be grateful (what else is there to life?),